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I have come to realise that I am going to miss him often and think of him every slight minute that I get to breathe, and I am going to write about him and the feelings I have carried for him for so long, but I have also come to realise that things have changed and they are not going to be the same anymore and I will have to move on with my life eventually. But because I have had those feelings for a very long time, it's also okay if they stay a little longer. It will take a little time to get used to his absence, and for those feelings to spread out into crevices of my daily life in a way where it doesn't ache anymore and I am okay with that now.

Said that here I bring you most of today plus a few from earlier days of this week. Needed sunshine on my skin, some fresh air, some out and about into the world, conversations and a juice day out to feel like a human being again but here we are, she has finally arrived.